As I Began to Love Myself - Charlie Chaplin

As I began to love myself...
I found that anguish and emotional suffering are only WARNING SIGNS
that I was living AGAINTS my own truth...
Today.. I know this is “AUTHENTICITY”

As I began to love myself...
I understood how much it can offend somebody as I try to force my desires on this person,
even though I knew the time was not right and the person was not ready for it,
and even though this person was me.
Today... I call it “RESPECT”

As I began to love myself...
I STOPPED CRAVING for a different life..
and I could see that everything that surrounded me was INVITING ME TO GROW...
Today... I call it “MATURITY”

As I began to love myself...
I understood that at any circumstance..
I am in the RIGHT PLACE at the RIGHT TIME,
and everything happens at the EXACTLY RIGHT MOMENT... So I could be calm..
Today I call it “SELF-CONFIDENCE”

As I began to love myself...
I QUIT STEELING my own time...
and I STOPPED designing huge projects for the future...
Today... I ONLY DO what brings me JOY and HAPPINESS..,
things I LOVE TO DO and that make my heart cheer....
and I do them in MY OWN WAY and in MY OWN RYTHM.
Today... I call it “SIMPLICITY”

As I began to love myself
I FREED MYSELF of anything that is NO GOOD for ME!!
PEOPLE.. THINGS... SITUATIONS...
At first I called this attitude an EGOISM
Today I know it is "LOVE OF ONESELF".

As I began to love myself...
I QUIT TRYNG TO ALWAYS BE RIGHT...
and ever since I was wrong less of the time...
Today... I discovered that is “MODESTY”

As I began to love myself...
I REFUSED to go on living in the past and worry about the future...
Now.. I ONLY LIVE FOR THE MOMENT... where everything is happening..
Today.. I live each day, day by day and I call it “FULFILLMENT”

As I began to love myself...
I RECOGNIZED that my mind can disturb me and it can make me sick..
But as I connected it to MY HEART, my mind became a VALUABLE ALLY...
Today... I call this connection "WISDOM OF THE HEART”

We NO LONGER NEED to fear arguments, confrontations or ANY KIND OF PROBLEMSOTHERS,
EVEN stars collide and out of their crashing new worlds are born...
Today I know"THAT IS LIFE!!!"

u make me smile... :)

There are soooo many things I want to tell you...

Things that come right from my heart...
Things I feel when I'm close to you...
But.. I just don't know how to start it.....

There is no words to describe the way you make me feel...
But the smile you put into my face...
Tells everyone that this feelings is real....

Little Coversation between Mom and Me

921

Me : Ma, Kode koper berapa...??
Ma : 921
Me : Angka apaan tuh 921...??
Ma : Aduuhh masa kamu ga tau siihh... Itu kan ulang tahun bapak kamuu..
Me : Heehhh....??
Ma : Iyaaa.. Tanggal 9 Bulan 2 Tahun 1..... 953
Me : *&%$#*&..!!!!

(Please deh maammm.... Baru kali ini ada orang ngambil angka 1 dari tahun kelahiran untuk di jadiin password..!!!)

Petromax

Ma : Indrii... Bawa Mama ke Malaysia dooonkk...
Me : Mau ngapainn..??
Ma : Mama pengen liat menara petromax..!!
Me : zzzzzzzzz

(Mau liat petromax ngapain jauh2 ke malaysia siihh... Liat ajah punya abang mi tek2... hihihihii)

Broncong

Ma : Waahh.. hebat juga yah itu Yuni shara...
Me : Hebat kenapa..? biasa ajahh kaya'nyaa...
Ma : Ya hebat... Dia dapet pacar BRONCONG...!!
Me : God, hellppp....

(beda 1 huruf doank siihh... tp artinya dah bedaaa..!!)

Tour d Korea

Namanya rejeki emang ga disangka-sangka yahh... Ga ada ujan, ga ada angin.. tiba2 nyokap nanyain... "Kamu mau ikut ke korea ga..??"
Ya mau laahhh... dan untung ajah boss gw yang baik hati ngasih ijin untuk pergi ke kampungnya Won bin.. hehehee...

Doubutsu Uranai

You are GOLD LION

who is rather serious and polite type of person.... (ouuww really...??)
You value personal relationships...
You suppress yourself and act to be a sociable person... But you are really a person who doesn't like to loose to anyone....You dislike emotional atmosphere and vague attitude.
You want to make everything clear-cut...


YOU LIKE TO STAY IN YOUR OWN LITTLE WORLD!! If you get in a situation where there are lots of people you can not express yourself and act as a perfect person....
You are not very subjective sort of person, UNLIKE ORDINARY WOMEN..
but unfortunately you lack soft and gentle atmosphere...

You tend to be too bold... You cannot help but stretch your hand to those who are in need....
You are very kind person who helps the weak... You are also weak on compliments, and will work enthusiastically after someone has given a compliment... (L O L)

You will go about your duty steadily and loyally, and not get in a rush to achieve the objective.... You have perseverance, and will work effortlessly until you reach your objective.... Something that you have worked steadily for a long, long time, will turn out to be an asset to the world.

You are CAREFUL and RATIONAL, and therefore place value to steady life.
After getting married, you will be a devoted mother and a wife, but you are really A VERY DEPENDENT PERSON, and prefer to KEEP YOUR OWN LITTLE WORLD.....!!


Check Your profile here http://world.doubutsu-uranai.com/index.html

Walkin' Away

I love him.... He loves me not..
I love him.... He hurt me lots..
I left him..... He WILL miss me much....!!

Finally found the answer...

Tuhan selalu punya jalanNya sendiri dalam memberikan jawaban atas pertanyaan2 UmatNya...
Dengan segala keribetan dan kekacauan yg terjadi dlm hidup gw belakangan ini... Finally found the answer for all the questions that runs in my head... It confused me at 1st.. Tp sekarang gw ngerasa legaaa bangett... :D
there's no doubt in my heart that He's The one... Mungkin kenyataannya sekarang memang beda.. but i'm sure.. Time will answer.... All i have to do is wait and let the water flows...

Semua yang terjadi udah ngebuat gw dan dia sama2 'melek'... At least.. it can make him realize that i am exist and admit that he feel 'it' too... Dan semua kejadian yg ada ngebuat gw jg menyadari segalanya... Selama ini yg gw tau cuma ngeluhh... Kenapa dia...?? Dia nyebelin.. Kejam.. Ga pedulian.. Ga sensi.. Ga jelashh... 'Ga' Bangeett, etc..
dan selama ini jg gw sering bertanya2.. Kenapa harus dia... Kenapa harus mahluk ajaib itu... dan dengan segala hujatan gw buat dia, kenapa gw ga bisa melepaskan diri dari dia.. Walopun gw dah jerit2 minta di 'release'.. (I really asked him.. Several times..!! at loud...!! to release me..heheeee)
but then.. in one single pray... on ramadhan's day... Everything revealed...

I love him...
I love him with no condition and term (hehehe)
I love him for who he is... Dengan segala keanehan2nya... (yg awalnya selalu buat gw kesel.. tp ketika gw inget2 lagi..selalu berhasil bikin gw senyum n ketawa.....)
I love the comfort feelings when i'm with him.. And Gw suka dgn apa yang udah ada sekarang antara gw ma dia...
Dia ga pernah buat jantung gw deg2an...
Dia ga pernah buat gw 'blush'.. Dia ga pernah buat gw ngerasa 'flattered' dengan kata2nya... Dia jg ga pernah buat gw berpikir 'what if..?'
But all i know.. I love the beautifull feelings i have inside when i think about what we had...

God.. I do believe everything happens for a reason.. Mungkin apa yang ada sekarang, inilah yg harus gw jalani... But i'm quite sure.. that day will come... maybe tomorrow, maybe 10 years from now.. Or maybe in heaven... but still... There will be a time.. when i can call him MINE..!!